| Apr. 13th, 2007 @ 07:26 pm i long for... |
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Feelin a lil::  crappy
the days when everyone didnt think so negatively about me. including myself. i feel like a huge dissapointment. i dont know why im writing this shit. its stupid, im sure everyone will tell me that, but i feel like all i ever do is make the people around me lives more difficult. i'm sorry to everyone ive let down, everyone ive hurt, continue to hurt, im sorry that i dont do the right things. im sorry for everything. |
| Aug. 15th, 2006 @ 06:35 pm what do i want? |
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| i dont really know what i want to do. these are just random thoughts of a stoned man. haha, but hopefully i can gain something useful from them..i need to do something. i have been in a rut since school is out, not that this is an entirely bad thing, i am not completely upset i wont be going to school this semester, but thats alright, i can use a semester off, hopefully get my broke ass act together. i want a hob at infonxx, infact i am going to apply for that right after this...see the fruits of my labor pay off already. haha. i need to slow down on the weed buying hah, so i might be getting into the world of smoking merch more instead of the delicious kind buds. haha maybe i could learn some self control and just buy kind when ive saved up like 500 bucks or something. good idea. well i think im done with this for now. so px niggers. |
| Jul. 17th, 2006 @ 11:22 am (no subject) |
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| Jul. 14th, 2006 @ 08:25 pm (no subject) |
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| im scared. i wish that i could just get over this stuff thats bothering me and not be sad anymore, but im losing someone who means a lot to me, i know she says ill be alright, but i dont see me being nearly as happy as i was with her. ive never felt the way that she makes me feel before, everytime she touches me i feel better, no matter whats wrong, just having her around makes everything seem like its going to be alright, and i dont know what im going to do wihtout that. i dont know what to do, i cant stop being sad. |
| Jul. 9th, 2006 @ 12:58 am (no subject) |
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| i dont know how much longer i can do this. |
| Jun. 28th, 2006 @ 04:35 am (no subject) |
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| it might be the booze talkin, but i feel good. |
| May. 25th, 2006 @ 04:12 am so... |
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i graduated high school. its a big moment in my life, even if im reluctant to admit it. for the first time in the last few weeks i feel like im going to be alright. i know what im going to do, and i seriously have a chance at achieving that. im going to graduate college, though i doubt my major will be psychology. I want less school, i'm not sure i could handle another 8 years. 4 sounds good to me. the last four were great, im hoping that the next four will just be leading to even better things, i am positive that i'm going to succeed.
Brittany and i are great. shes my favorite person ever, shes the person who makes me smile just by being near me. every time she touches me i feel amazing. call me whipped if you will, but i couldnt be happier. |
| Mar. 29th, 2006 @ 12:13 am True story... |
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| i way layin in bed (listenin to eminem haha) but mostly i was thinking about how proud i am of my Brittany, i got up after being almost asleep to write in this to say Im really proud of my Brittany, shes awesome :) she makes me super happy :) :) :) |
| Mar. 26th, 2006 @ 11:04 pm (no subject) |
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| i wanna hold my Brittany real bad |
| Mar. 23rd, 2006 @ 04:09 pm i got a job... |
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| i forgot what it was like to be able to day dream about the future and actually have a chance at accomplishing it. im so glad i finally got a fuckin job. its nice because i think about moving out, by myself or with my Brittany, id like to move in with Brittany, and im hoping we will at some point, i just dont know when ill be able to move out, due to the fact i dont have any money. i hope i can move out in 2006, but im not sure if i will be. i think staying at home during the summer wouldnt be a bad idea so i have some time to work full time and save up money for stuff. i love my Brittany with all my heart, i wish my life were spent laying in bed, rubbing her back. nothing would make me happier |
| Mar. 1st, 2006 @ 06:13 pm (no subject) |
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| ive pretty much felt like the biggest dumbass on the planet lately, i cant hear for shit so im constantly saying "What" "HUH?" it just makes me want to shut the fuck up and be alone. meh, maybe i am a dumbass |
| Feb. 21st, 2006 @ 05:47 pm I LOVE MY BRITTANY!! |
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Feelin a lil::  sick
Today was...okay i guess, the only bright side to it was that i got to spend the entire day with my Brittany, and there is never anything i would rather do then be with her, she makes me feel better just by being with me.
I got sick yesterday and that sucks, the flu or some bullshit, running a fever and pretty much just feeling crappy, however, i really appreciate Brittany spending time with me today, it made my day about a million times better. I hope im better soon, this crap sucks but oh well whatcha gonna do?
i'm gonna go lay and be warm. |
| Feb. 14th, 2006 @ 06:26 pm (no subject) |
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Feelin a lil::  happy
So... today was Brittany and mine year anniversary! go us. we're amazing together for sure. I love my Brittany so much today was amazing. I think i actually did a good job for today, it was my loves birthday as well and i hope she liked the things i got her, i did my best :). Well i think i need to take a lay im sooo tired. |
| Jan. 25th, 2006 @ 09:17 pm (no subject) |
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Well well well... its been a while again eh my friends? haha as if anyone cares about this. Well life has been goin pretty good, except im getting sick and thtas never fun. I guess i might have a job at red lobster i hope brittany works there, thatd be amazing, im not sure i really wanna work there otherwise, im always worried that i wont be able to do the job or something, part of the reason i dont want to go to mcd's im afraid ill go work there and end up sucking at it and it'll just be confirmed i suck at life. oh well. i turned in a few applications with my Brittany today, hopefully ill get a job and be saved from the purgatory that is mcdonalds, well all in all i have an amazing life, and an amazing Brittany, i really dont know what id do without her, she's the one person i can rely on to make me happy. she could never fail at making me smile, and i love her with all my heart :) alright thats enough cheasieness out of me.
I hope i get to talk to Brittany soon!
:) |
| Jan. 14th, 2006 @ 11:21 am i say... |
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"Fuck the Truck"-Big Easy
Ive been having a pretty decent life. things are actually goin pretty good, but there were definately some unfortunate turn of events, like i got a flat tire and a helicopter was following me and brittany while we walkes, some cats followed us, and then two cops passed, it really sucked a lot i aint even gonna lie. So i got the flat tire at like 11:57 or some bullshit, fuck friday the 13th man. well the truck blows. but life is good, im gonna go lay now. |
| Jan. 2nd, 2006 @ 10:44 am Wow... |
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The last couple of days have been amazing. Brittany and i are in love, we're perfect together and i would be the happiest man on this planet if i get to spend my life with her. The last couple of days have felt like a dream, felt like the most perfect dream ever, the only way that that is wrong is that it has been the most perfect reality, and it never has to end :)
I love Brittany, and she loves me:):):):):):) |
| Dec. 27th, 2005 @ 04:46 pm I'm in love... |
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| Yeah i am in love. Brittany has my heart, and there isn't anyone i'd rather be in love with. :) :) :) |
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